I must reconcile my FAITH with my current circumstances, trials and tribulations. In order to do this, I must have FAITH in God and the power of His Holy Spirit and His word to transform my mind, heart, and soul to agree with what he says about me and the giants I’m facing rather than what my circumstances are saying to me in the present. As I look back over my life, I realized that I am FAITH. The situations I have endured in life have purposely pushed me into a spiritual realm that those who lack FAITH wouldn’t dare think to tread upon. You see, FAITH is not for the faint of heart. FAITH is not for those that can’t see past their current season of tribulation.
Webster defines FAITH as:
a “noun” and simply as a strong belief in someone or something or a strong belief in God. But actually, FAITH is so much more than Webster’s rudimentary definition. If you dig deeper; FAITH is an “action” verb and not just a “noun”. For FAITH is actually exercising, working out, training, implementing, putting into effect your trust in the beliefs and precepts that God has set forth in His Holy Word.
I find myself struggling to balance faith with presentation of life events. These life events have made me question my position, my sight, my thought, my emotions and my behavior.
Faith tells you to have confidence. How can I have confidence when I lack vision or know how?
Faith tells you to trust in a person. How can I trust in a person when the very faith and trust that they are to have in me is broken?
Faith tells you to be obligated and to be loyal. How can I obligate myself to a person or thing when my faith is fractured? How can I have faith and loyalty of people and things when they are inconsistent?
Faith tells you to have fidelity and to keep a promise. Life around me is interrupted by broken promises.
Faith tells me to believe based not on proof but proof is inevitable. As I look around, the profile is not a reflection of the presentation. In 1 Timothy 4:12 it tells us to not let anyone look down on us but to set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, and in purity.
It’s these very principles that carry me through the roadblocks, the heartaches, and disappointments. This has been the hardest year of my life with the greatest losses. It’s difficult to struggle in silence especially when you don’t have the words to express your thoughts and emotions.
What has gotten me through is my interpretation of faith.
F: I will FAIL. In failure, I will feel uncomfortable but I know this is where the greatest growth comes from.
A: I will be APPREHENSIVE. In apprehension births perception of understanding. I know that fear is not real.
I: It is not IMPOSSIBLE. I believe in me. I trust in Him. I have full assurance of hope and heart. It is in FAITH that I will anticipate things to happen. I will receive Insight. In times of heartache and difficulty, I will turn to God and seek his Face and wait for divine insight and revelation. For God says in Jeremiah 29:13, “You will seek Me and find Me when you seek me with all of your heart”.
T: I will TALK. I have to be open with myself and others in order to allow healing to take place. It’s in being open that the wounds of my heart will overflow.
H: I will have HOPE. I will desire change. I will aspire to get past my woes. I will aim to heal. You see faith is confidence in things unseen. No one knows your walk. No one knows your faith.
Being Contagious With Change,